i had an interesting dream last night. i was kissing Aidan. which is silly, because he's taken, so totally (dykeboi. i am still queering it up). but that beats the hell out of tonight, because i really can't sleep. i have memories taking over my present-life. that = crying = insomnia = bad news. i can see why so many lesbians have therapists, i think i need help. is there somewhere to go to where i can be injected with little-kid so i can be happy and energetic again? i don't want the past, i want a future with past feelings of security.